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Brady Charles,,, We went to visit you yesterday , after Alex's birthday party. Mommy & Daddy left you a bag with toys and candy. It is so hard to go to things and not have you running around and being in the middle of things !!! Papa & Grammie miss you sooooooo much, and we cry everyday. I thought that it would start getting easier, but it isn't. Your two brothers are wonderful , and I know that you visit them all the time, Come and visit Papa once in awhile, cause I sure am missing you !!!
hey my baby.... just wanted to say hi... it's been 2 months since you left us and the days don't get easier... most the time they seem to get harder. i just want you to know that i think of you all the time and i wish you were here with every ounce of life i have. I miss your smile and miss our walmart trips. We are trying to start our life without you and it sucks. I have 3 gorgeous sons and only get to see 2 of them. i miss you and miss seeing you in the morning and at bedtime. i miss ya all the time but i think mornings are the hardest. Your smile is so sorely missed.... i am trying to get out and enjoy the weather and am always looking in the sky to see if i can find the cloud you are sitting on and waving from. i know one day i will see it. anyway little bear i love you and am missing you lots....... love mommy
hey little man..... your brother is here. i know you know that. i hope you were wearing your shirt. As much as this is finally a positive in our life i am more heartbroken than ever. when we came home with ethan it was supposed to be the best time in our lives to have 3 healthy little boys in this house. As much as i am thrilled to have him home and love him just a much as i love you and alex i am completely lost. i don't know if it is the fact that i can finally let myself breakdown, the fact that never will i have a picture of all my children together, the fact that Ethan will never get to know his big brother or just that it has been to f*&ing long since i have held you and kissed you. i tell you i love you numerous times a day and i hope you hear me. i'm pretty sure that you kissed me in the hospital while i was sleeping. even if it wasn't you i will always believe it was you. an old wives tale is that when a baby smiles when he is sleeping it means the angels are kissing him... Ethan smiles a whole lot a lot more than you and Alex ever did... to help me get through this i tell myself that it is you kissing him. please come to him in his dreams and let him know you... i am going to do my best to let your memories never fade...and make sure that he knows you as well as we did. my preciouse bear i miss you so much and i need you so much. some how please let me know you are okay let me know that you know i love you. i would give almost anything to hold you for 1 more minute even though that would not be enough. anyway ....... i miss you soooo much....... as mommy and daddy are trying to get on with our lives realize that i am finding some days impossible to smile and be happy and think that it will be like this till the day i die and can meet up with you again. i love you little bear...... hopefully i will see you in my dreams sometime soon. forever your heartbroken mommy......
The last day that Brady was up to the house, we were over to the brook. Well of course, Brady fell in. He layed in the cold water hollaring, "Papa".!!! I grabbed him and carried him back to the house and asked him if the water was cold? He said yes,and by the time Gammie got him undressed , his little legs were bright red and cold. I miss him so much,,,,,my heart breaks again everyday...
Hey buddy so tomorrow we go in to the hospital and won't be coming home without your brother.....i don't even know what to say to you... i want you here i want you to meet your brother, i want ethan to know how lucky he is to have you as a big brother. He will know who you are from the first hour he is out here and i will tell him stories over and over again about you. i miss you so much little bear. They sent me a picture of you footstone. it's beautiful...or at least as beautiful as something like that can be. this sucks!!!!!!!! i feel like i have nothing left to me and need just 1 minute with you to gain some strength. i miss your smile and miss holding hands with you. i miss the glimmer in your eyes!! i somedays can look at pictures of you and smile and other days i just look at them and turn my head because i can't believe that is the only way i can see you. anyway buddy i am just trying to tell you that i miss you and i love you more than life itself. i know you will be with me tomorrow and just let me know somehow so maybe i can have the strength to do this. ps don't forget your tshirt. see ya tomorrow little man!! xoxoxoxox
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