okay buddy....since there is where we seem to write to you.... i am missing you more everyday and i know you are here. i feel you and see the games you are playing with me. i was talking to you yesterday on the way home from the drs. i hope you heard me. this is such a bittersweet time in our lives. As you already know we found out that your baby brother should be making his appearance this week and this is our next big thing that you should be here sharing with us. Hopefully you will be wearing your tshirt that mommy made you so that everyone know you are a big brother. i am really scared buddy....i want you here to be able to meet him, to be able to hold him and to have pictures of all of our sons together. i know and have been told that you will be there with me, i am counting on that..i need your strength. i hope you are raising hell up there. things are hectic down here as you know with your brother dislocating his elbow and thank you for helping him through this. as hectic as things have been not a minute that goes by that i don't think of you. We were watching alvin and the chipmunks the other day and i know you would love it. if you haven't seen it get it and just let us hear you laughing. i miss that laugh.. it was the greatest. anyway bear... i will be talking to you a lot in the next week and i just wanna make sure you will be there with us... love ya lots and miss you sooo much.
Hey baby bear thanks for helping me the last few days. I miss you so much little bear my heart is broken and will always be forever. With your little brother coming soon I know that there will be a big part of you coming through him. Do your daddy a favor buddy let him be his own person but show your mother and I that your with him. I know that even with you gone he will still sence you and he will know who you are. He will know that he has two brothers. Nobody will ever forget you little bear. I will never ever let that happen to you. Look after both your brothers for me please pal. I think about you every day buddy I still come home and expect that spank on my butt and then chase after you and tickle your pork chops only to get bonbarded with you and you brother jumping on me. I miss that so much. I miss putting to bed every night and then you both going to the bathroom twelve times then when I think you sleeping to find you playing anywere but in your bed. I miss cooking a nice dinner and then having to put it in the freezer for you only to have you start eating when were all done. I just ask one more favor of you little bear when we go to fenway to see the sox play this summer please be there with me and let me know. Let me know what you want because this was to be your first game and were going to anything and everything that you want Daddy will be thinking of you as will everybody else there with me I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH FOREVER AND ALWAYS. LOVE YOUR DADDY.
Brady as i woke up last night 1 of the many times i had a few memories that i thought needed to be shared with everyone....
i remembered one night waking up to your daddy telling me you were not in you bed and he couldn't find you... he had no clue where you were... frantically i jumped out of bed and we started looking... first place we went was in your bedroom and turned on the light... waking "halex" up and we looked to find your little feet hanging out from the edge of the bed. Not sure how/why but you woke up and crawled under your bed and fell back asleep. when we pulled you out you just looked at us dumb founded like.... why did you wake me up.....
memory 2 was something a lot of us got to share but it couldn't have happened to any one else... the true Brady who did things without thinking and without fear. When we went on our cruise in Oct of 2007. We were at the hotel actually waiting for the bus to pick us up and take us to the cruise ship and you and your brother were on the balcony of the hotel room. You were looking at the pool below and i am not sure what happened next and we heard you crying hystarically. We looked to find that you had gotten your head stuck in the railing and couldn't get it out. While we are laughing at you we got you unstuck and you told us you wouldn't do it again...... couple of hours later after we got on the cruise ship and low and behold you did it again. This time you did it in the cafateria on the lido deck and more people were around and you got your head stuck in the pillar next to the table.... only you buddy...... Your brother keeps us going but not in the same way you did.... you didn't give us a minute to think or stop. The minute we stopped you wanted juicey or gummies or needed someone to wipe you tiney hiney... (sorry buddy had to say it.) what i wouldn't give to wipe the Tiney Hiney 1 more time.... I love you little bear and miss you everyday. My heart is broken and i don't think it will ever be repaired. I know you are with us we can feel you around but i would love to hold you for the rest of my life..... for 5 minutes would help just to be able to tell you how much i love you and you mean to me. Good morning little bear..... Have a good day... ride those clouds and keep everyone on their toes....
Oh Brady - Gammie seems to be missing you more and more each day. I like to remember our Saturday mornings - could always tell when you were up - no matter what part of the house we were in. The stamping of those little feet. Then it was a chase to get everyone dressed and then to breakfast. Subway was your favorite - sitting on the stools right next to the window. Having chips with your breakfast. Of course, you and Alex had to share that information with your parents. I'm pretty sure they were not impressed - but what happens at Gammie's house - should have stayed at Gammie's house. Thank God we have so many wonderful memories of you. You have left a huge hole in our lives. I treasure every moment I had with you. I will love you always and forever.
I have to giggle when I remember back to the playdate we had when you were about 2. You were being naughty and Mommy kept saying "Brady Charles!!!" and before the playdate was over even Garrett was calling you by your whole name. I think he may have thought that was really what you were always called. You were a special boy Brady, you made alot of people smile. You had a certain charm to you. A charm and a smile that will be missed by many until they see you again. Watch over your Mommy and Daddy and Alex and Ethan, and all of your grandparents. They miss you more than anyone in this world and you will always be a huge peice of their heart. Rest in peace Brady, although I know peaceful wasn't in your vocabulary. Ok what was I thinking...Go Raise Holy heck up there!!
